Well.. crap...

Up to 325 today, but I kinda figured that was going to be the case, and could have been worse.   On top of that, I left my breakfast bar at home so I am absolutely STARVING for lunch right now.  That can't be a good thing.

And to top it off, I've got an extremely busy weekend ahead of me, and will be out of the house for most of it, which means a bunch of tough food decisions.   Why oh why can't they have a fast food health alternative out there.   Seems like it could do very well if done right.  I know a bunch of places have a few selections, and most of those are sit down places.  And to be honest.. most of the crap they concoct as healthy dishes taste like crap.

Oh well.  How did you all do on your pact with me?   I think I did well.  

Anyways.  Have a great weekend!  I'm going to even if you don't.  I promise.

Let's make a pact

As I sit here eating my chewy, 90 calorie, granola bar and knowing it's not the best nutritional thing for me, I know that's better for me than say a cinamon roll or something, and was thinking.  Let's make a pact.

For today, I will eat as healthy as I possibly can given my circumstances in the world today.

Meaning, if I got to lunch with friends, I will stick to a chicken of some sort, and veggies.  I will not eat anything fried today, and I will not snack after dinner.  I make this pledge to you.   Can you  help me with this, and do the same?

Let's do this together.

I feel good because I stepped on the scale this morning and was down to 324.00.   That's almost 4 lbs from yesterday.  I know it's probably water weight or something, but it still felt good, and even though it may go up tomorrow as my water retention increases, but it's going in the right direction.

Meat Loaf! Meat Loaf! Rolly Polly Meat Loaf!

So, I probably ate to much yesterday.  It's going to be close.  I didn't do a good job of logging my foods, but I plan to go back today and finish out the nutrition information in DailyBurn and see how I did.   BUT... I still lost some weight this morning when I got on the scale, so YAY me.

I have to blame my wife on it yesterday!  Why?  Because her meatloaf is to die for.  No seriously.  I didn't think I'd every say that, and I don't look at anyone's meatloaf the same.  Ok, this is starting to sound dirty, and not in a good way.  So anyways.. I had to have seconds, and they were good.

Time to go grocery shopping as well.  We did really well planning out meals for the past week, so hopefully we can continue that and keep away the donato's pizza monster.  He always shows up to the house with a few boxes of goodies that really taste good.  But oh well. 

Anyways.. just checking in for the day.   I should have the podcast up tonight if I don't slack on it!  

I just said.. NO.. to fries.

My wife just called and asked if she could bring me dinner home since we're running light on the groceries and she wanted to pick something up for the kids for dinner.   I know, i know.   I'm not supposed to be eating fast food, and I've cut down a great deal, but we seriously need a grocery trip and unless I'm willing to open that container in the back left corner of the fridge with god knows what in it, then Chic-fil-a it is!   And man, how I love their waffle fries.

But when the question came.   "So, do you want that a combo?".   I said... No.   I'll just make some green beans here, and then you also won't have to mess with carrying drinks.   So yay.  Small victory I guess.   But I'll take it.

Cause seriously.. I really just wanted to say.. BRING ME 2 FRIES!  It' President's day after all!  Let's celebrate!   :)

So far.. So good...

I'm trying to get past the, I'm fat stage, and move on with not being fat.   I know it's going to take a long time, and that really sucks.  I would love an instant cure.  Cure.  Funny.  Disease.  Not funny.   I freak out about getting diabetes or having a heart attack, and it's so sad, because it's all self inflicted.  

Well, after getting home and eating right.  Staying under calories and meeting most of my  nutritional goals, I hopped on the treadmill for 30 mins while the kids were outside playing.   Walked 1.7 miles, which was nice.   My current goal is to walk 1 mile a night, atleast.   If I throw in running, or weights or something else, yay, but the minimum i want to do is a mile walking.

It's shopping weekend as well, so I'll be able to concentrate on things I need to eat, and not the junk that's hiding in the kitchen shelves.

Wish me luck!  I'll follow up tomorrow and let you know how it's going.

Motivation

Motivation can come from the strangest places, and it can come from the most common of places, and I'm not sure where I've gotten my latest breath of motivation from.   I do know that flipping through the channels last night and stopping on the Biggest Loser weigh ins and seeing people who weigh less than I do, look (in my mind) incredibly larger.   It was a bit of a shocker, and wake up.  

So this morning I step on the scale for the first time in months, and see that I have depressingly gained 19 lbs.  WoW.  and that is only since November.   I've been fooling myself thinking that I have only gained a lb or 2 and that you don't need to weigh in frequently, but holy schnikes.  19 lbs.   That's a 10 week set back.  Atleast!  Not to mention the time lost that I could have been under 300 lbs by now if I had just stuck to the plan.

Where did I go wrong?  I keep thinking back to where it all fell apart, and as ridiculous as it is, I think it was Gaming.   And playing World of Warcraft, initially.  Though I'm not even playing it as much, but that's because I'm busier than ever playing Minecraft and doing a podcast, The Shaft, and it's given me an excuse of not having time to do what I need to do.

Anyways, I think I'm motivated.  How's that for being sure.   I guess I'm snake bitten by myself of thinking I've been motivated in the past, and then fizzling out.  Oh well.  Time to start again.   I hope someone else out there can start again with me.   More on that later.  Let's see if I'm still motivated tomorrow.